I had been going out with Julie for nearly two years.  I had decided that the time had come to ask her to marry me, so I had taken her out to a posh hotel, where I had also booked a room for the night, and booked a table for a nice meal.  In time established manor, after the meal I went down on one knee and asked her to marry me.  I saw her face drop.  She took my hand, but not the ring, and had me stand up saying we needed somewhere quiet.  I told her that we had a room and she insisted that we go there.


Now she had me worried.  I wondered was she already married or something worse.  In the room she had me sit on the bed and as she stood facing me she said that she would love to marry me, but she had something she had been meaning to tell me for a while, but the opportunity had never happened.  She added that it could affect me wanting to marry her.  I was getting more and more worried and asked her to just tell me what was wrong.


Julie took a big breath and said, "I have been in a few porn films."   I couldn't believe what I thought I had just heard and asked her to repeat what she had said.  She again told me that she had been in several porn films.  For a few moments I couldn't grasp what she had said and then reality suddenly hit me.  I asked how many films and when she said eight I knew this wasn't an accident that she had been tricked into one or two films.  To me eight meant that Julie had been a willing participant.


I left Julie in the hotel and drove home on my own.  At home all I could think about was Julie with other men, being used and filmed for others pleasure.  It took hours but I did finally fall asleep.  Next morning was no better, I woke with a huge erection and still thinking about Julie and her having sex  presumably for the money.  Julie arrived back home at ten o'clock and let herself in my house.  She stressed that she wasn't there to argue she just wanted to put her position across and if I was still unhappy she would take all her possessions and never bother me again.


I told her to be quick about it and she started her tale.  She said that as a student at Uni she was getting deeper in debt.  Then she heard of someone looking for girls to appear in adult films and he was paying pretty good money.  She said that perhaps she was naive, but she thought that adult films meant just the odd naked body, and as she had been topless and even nude on one beach she thought that her prayers had been answered.  So she applied and at an interview and screen test she was quickly told that they wanted her.  She still wasn't told what would be expected of her.  They assumed she knew what adult films meant.


It wasn't until she was on set that she realized that they expected her to have sex and on camera.  She was desperate for the money so she thought she would grin and bare it.  It wasn't as if she was a virgin so she ended up in a scene that was a group orgy.  She hadn't realized that it would mean multiple partners, but once the scene started it was too late to say no.  Besides after the first few minutes she found she actually enjoyed it and got very excited and came several time.


The money paid off a big chunk of her debt and when she heard of a second film being made she was quick to say yes and found herself back on set.  The director remembered her from the previous film and had liked the scene where she came on camera and decided that instead of being virtually an extra he wanted Julie in a  more prominent role.  She found herself and another girl in the main scenes.  They were competing for the same man and she found that she was having to up her game and besides doing oral sex on screen, something she had only done in her private life a few times, to being spit roasted by the two main men in the film.  Later she was again in an orgy.


This time she was paid better than before and it totally wiped out her debt.  She found in her private life that she was going further with boyfriends and enjoying it.  Oral now seemed normal and even sex with two men became common practice for her.  She was living her screen life off camera as well.  Also she had started to live up to the money she had earned and soon fell back in debt and even deeper than before.


She found that she needed to do two more films to get things back under control and out of debt again.  In those films she found herself having anal sex.    Something she had ever even thought about or considered.  While she said she didn't enjoy it she found again the money was good.  She also met a guy on set and after a sex scene with him on set she started an affair with him off set even though he was a married man.


By this time with the explanation and some graphic descriptions by Julie, I had a rock hard erection.  I asked Julie why the last four films if she was back out of debt.  She went on to say that the guy she was having an affair with was getting grief from his wife who had guessed that he was seeing someone off set.  She was aware he was in porn, but expected fidelity when he wasn't on set.  She started to monitor him to try to keep him away from Julie.  Their only chance of continuing to see each other was on set, even if it also meant that Julie would have to have sex with other men.  By the last film he was having major issues with his wife and Julie hoped he would leave his wife for her.  Instead he walked away from Julie and didn't do the film.


She said she ended up on set sucking and fucking with lots of men, and no boyfriend.  That had her thinking about the rest of her life.  She had finished Uni and had just landed a job and had a fair amount of money in the bank.  That was when I came along.  She said that she had fallen for me quite quickly and wanted to tell me about her past, but thought that she would loose me if she did.  Time slipped by and there never seemed the right time to tell me.  Then I went and asked her to marry me which set the cat amongst the pigeons.


She said that she just couldn't marry me and then I find out later about her past.  She said she just couldn't do that.  She said she still loved me and if I could ever forgive her for not being honest with me sooner, she would be honored to be my wife.  I was now conflicted.  I still loved Julie yet I now knew that she had slept with many men and on film.  I told her I would think about it.  Julie took her belongings and moved out.


Over the next few days and especially nights I found out just how much I missed Julie.  The feel and smell of her as well as her laugh haunted my dreams as did dreams of her being used by multiple men and through it Julie was enjoying it in my dreams.  I woke regularly and every time I woke I was sporting an erection.  I was beginning to lack sleep and I was depressed not seeing and hearing her.  Then I bumped into a friend of Julies.  I was expecting to hear that she was getting on with her life and happy, but instead I was told she was also unhappy and depressed.


I decided to call her and see if we could talk things over.  Julie was happy to see me and over a coffee in town she told me how unhappy she was and I had to admit that I felt the same.  I told her that I couldn't get images of her in sex scenes out of my head.  Julie asked would it help if I could see the real things.  I told her that I didn't know.  I told her what I did know was I was very unhappy without her.  We agreed to start again as if we had just met and take things slowly.


We had a date at the cinema and another at a pub and she offered that the next time perhaps she could cook me a meal.  As she was now living in a tiny bed sit she said it would have to be at my house.  I was reluctant as I worried the dreams that had ceased might come back, but if we were to go forward it would have to happen at some time.


After a lovely meal that Julie cooked we sat listening to music and talking.  Julie started by saying that we had been going out for almost three weeks now and she had something important to tell me.  I asked what she wanted to say.  Julie said she had a secret that needed discussing before we went any further.  It was now that we had the same conversation again as Julie told me she had been in porn films.  It seemed strange going over it again, but Julie insisted that if we wanted to go further I needed to know and probably see the films.


I told her I needed her and she told me to turn the music off and handed me six DVD's  and said to put one on suggesting which one to start with.  The film played for a little over an hour and Julie only came into view in the last twenty minutes and sure enough she was in an orgy scene.  She looked a little shocked and scared when she first appeared, but by the end of her scenes she was being screwed by her third partner and I could see what the producer had meant when he captured her having an orgasm.


Besides it being some average looking guy fucking Julie she looked beautiful as her face contorted as she went into orgasm.  Then the final shot of Julie was of the guy's cum trickling back out her pussy and down her arse.  I had such an erection that it controlled me and Julie squealed as I wrestled her flat on the sofa  and pulled her panties to one side and slammed my erection deep in her pussy.  I watched her face contort as I fucked her and then after she finally went stiff and I had pumped my cum in her pussy I withdrew and watched my cum drip from her pussy down her arse just like in the film.


Julie moved back in the following day.  Two nights later I put the second film on and I watched the scenario play out that Julie had described to me of her and another girl competing.  I watched Julie in group sex with two men several times before the final orgy scene where Julie ended up with her man on screen.   I couldn't contain my excitement as Julie was taking a real hard plowing on screen.  It again resulted in great sex and afterwards we were laid resting.  Julie joked that if we ever got into financial trouble she could at least get us out of it again.  Besides laughing it resulted in yet  another great sex session.


Over the next few weeks we watched the other films that Julie had and each time it resulted in great sex.  She told me that she didn't have the last two films but gave me the titles. I went out and at my local sex shop ordered them as they didn't have them.  They arrived in a few days.


Julie was stunned that I had bought them, but not as stunned as I was when we watched one and saw her have anal sex and even more shocked to see her in a girl girl scene.  That got me extremely excited and I fucked Julie three times before we went to sleep that night.  Two nights later we watched the final film.  It was just more of what was in the previous seven films.  Julie seemed very relaxed on screen and appeared to thoroughly enjoy it.  I wondered if she was just acting or did she enjoy it.   Regardless it still resulted in more great sex.


A few nights later we were in bed and cuddling when I asked Julie if she had enjoyed being filmed as especially in the last few it looked like she had enjoyed it.  Julie was truthful when she said she did in the last few.  The early ones she had done for the money and only the money.  I asked did she miss doing it.  Again Julie was truthful and told me she did.  The fact that in a short period of time she would have sex with often strangers and quiet a few of them was almost as exciting as not knowing what the director wanted her to do until just minutes before doing it.  She also admitted that the girl girl sessions were particularly exciting.


Then I asked her if she would like to make more films.  Julie was quick to answer telling me not if it would ruin our relationship.  I asked what if I was cool with it.  Julie answered perhaps but wouldn't elaborate.   I wasn't in a position to press her further at that time.  Well not in that way as my throbbing cock needed a home.  More great sex.


A few days later Julie pressed me on our conversation and wanted to know why I had asked those question.   I told her that I hadn't expected it, but watching the films made me extremely horny and although I still felt pangs of jealousy seeing other men using her, it was a big turn on.  Julie informed me that had I not started seeing her again and invited her to move back in she had thought about looking into doing another film.  I got extremely excited and took Julie right there,  I sat her on the work surface and plowed into her until we both came.


I almost forgot about that conversation until Julie came in from work and told me that she had made inquiries about the company that had filmed her and was told they were starting recruitment for their next film.  It got me a little excited that she had called them.  Later we had sat down to eat when her phone rang and she was talking to someone and it was obvious that whoever it was, worked from the company that had filmed Julie.  Julie got off the phone and I was excited to hear what had been said and what she had told them.


Julie told me that it was the director, and when he heard that she had rang in was keen to get her to work for him again.  I asked what she had told him.  Julie said that she told him she was in a stable relationship and didn't want to risk breaking it up again.  I was already getting excited and asked Julie again that if it was ok would she like to do another film.  Julie answered yes.


I told Julie to ring him back and tell him with a few demands, she could do their latest film.  The demands were that I could attend and the second was that we got a copy of the completed film.   The director was quick to say yes to both demands.    The only other issue was he had to move the shoot back a week as it was the earliest that the two of us could get time off work.


Four weeks later we were on a plane being flown to Florida.  We had a day to get over the jet lag.  The following day we were driven to the studio, on the edge of the desert.  I was introduced to Howard the director.  I told him I wasn't sure about watching the filming as the films I had watched had caused some jealousy.    He said it wasn't a problem as he had absorbed me into the action.  Ten minutes later I found myself taped to a chair and gagged and made to watch as Julie was acting that she was being forced to pleasure two men that had broken into her house.


I was as hard as a rock as the men undressed Julie and spit roasted her.  I was genuinely trying to get free to stop it, but it was useless as I was well secured.  Then it brought tears to my eyes as I see Julie taken in a double penetration scene.  I came in my pants without ever being touched.   The director had a camera pointed at me throughout the shoot.   After the initial anal penetration, which had Julie pulling faces as obviously it was uncomfortable, she was soon enjoying it and bouncing herself on the two cocks and she was taunting me for the camera telling me that if I was half a man I would be doing this to her.  I later learnt that Howard wanted shots of me in the final film


That was by far the worst scene for me.  I was freed for the second scene that Julie was in and it was a girl girl scene.  That had me as hard as a rock throughout the shoot.  I watches lots of other scenes with other girls and men.  I found  a scene with Julie and an old man very exciting as she worked hard to get him hard with her hands and mouth and then finally she screwed him.   The final orgy scene which seemed to be this directors trade mark  had Julie fucked by multiple men.  That also had me hard.  Julie refused me sex that night as she had more filming to do and the tests she had before filming wouldn't be valid.


The filming lasted three days and then Julie and I used the next ten days to chill out before returning home.  The sex during those ten days was fantastic and on returning home I again asked Julie to marry me.  She instantly said yes.  We married eleven months later in Spain just after Julies latest film shoot.  Friends and family were invited out two days after the shoot and we had a great wedding and went on to Portugal for our honeymoon.


True to his word Howard not only sends us the final films but also copies of all the cut material.  It always ends up with days of outrageous sex between us.  I saw what Howard had put in the film, of me with tears running down my cheeks as Julie was getting double penetrated.  Julie has now been in a total of nineteen films and was scheduled to be in her twentieth film when Covid had us locked down.


The fact that none of our friends or family have a clue what Julie has done and continues to do just makes it all the naughtier and more exciting.  I do hope things get back to normal soon so that the shooting can resume and we can fly to a new location and I can watch the love of my life perform with others for me and many others to watch and enjoy.


Before you ask I will not tell Julies porn name or which films she has been in, so that we can keep Julie's secret.