Giving in - part 1

As a ‘mature’ guy - I say mature which is more to do with age than mindset, as my mind is still very frivolous - I have become more aware of the sensitivity of my arse. There I have said it …….. the taboo thing that straight guys are not supposed to discuss. The sensitive itch that needs ‘scratching’ in a place we guys are not to acknowledge. In truth I have been aware of said sensitivity but didn’t want to admit it to myself or indeed the wife, during our getting less frequent sexual activities.

We both like missionary it’s incredibly sensual and everything is ‘within reach’. More and more she has taken to grabbing my cheeks squeezing them and extensively spreading them to cause a kind of stretching of my butt hole. Once she even ran the tip of her finger over the area of increasing sensitivity and brought a surprised gasp from me, with the response ‘Oooohhhh….you like that you naughty boy’ she whispered in my ear. I never had the wherewithal to actually answer or acknowledge so the moment passed. Though I did grab her rather thick cheeks and produced a series of fast long strokes combined with some grinding on her clit which surprisingly brought us both off.

We lay there panting hugging and kissing but never discussing the thing that brought us to that point.

Life carried on we would have rather good sex on an ever decreasing frequency neither of us with the courage to talk about ‘that night’. Though I have to say the next few months were a real time of exploration for me, that the new acknowledged sensitivity had aroused in me. I did some research on the net and my curiosity was growing….. about this new found sensitivity. I tried touching myself while masturbating. It was good but not the same. After much pontificating I wondered if I was gay or bisexual. I knew I liked being touched there but wasn’t sure how to explore any opportunities. I wondered if other guys felt like this. I didn’t feel like I was gay I didn’t fancy other guys I still loved my wife and still wanted pussy.

Then I came across an article on YouTube by a female sex therapist. To cut a long story short she said she like to have sex with men and women, but that didn’t make her a lesbian. To her sex is a shared expression which can be had with either men or women, ‘it’s having and sharing sex with another body and like minded people that is so satisfying’. I have to say that took a while to process. After a few days I had a revelation and decided to put it to the test and visit a gay sauna. That opened my eyes!

I began to realise that men need regular sex and will even turn to other like minded men to help out. What I found out in the sauna was that most of the men were not gay just needed some contact and relief. There was almost a camaraderie to help guys to cum. This mixed with the genuine gay guys who were also looking for some contact and relief the atmosphere was quite heady.

It took a few visits before I connected with anyone. Though one day as if everything had aligned I met these two older guys. I was in the steam room and they came over and sat either side of me. I felt a bit intimidated but the older one reassured me they were ‘ok’ and we are all here for the ‘same thing’. We chatted a bit and one of them started to massage my cock. Well it had been two weeks since anyone had touched me so my cock rose very fast and was totally hard in seconds.

‘Told you’ one said to the other he needs some help.

‘Look it’s ok I can do it myself’……….’no no let us take care of you’ At that they both got up gestured for me to follow them to another room, where we will not be disturbed. Bewitched I just followed.

In the cubicle they went to work really fast. I was standing and the shorter one got on his knees and took my hard and very sensitive cock in his mouth. The other one was behind me and touching my arse cheeks….massaging them softly.

Well all my attention was on the incredible work being done on my nob……. never been sucked like that before. The guy behind me got on his knees and in one swift movement he had opened my ass cheeks and was running his tongue over my over sensitive arsehole. It was like an electric shock bringing all those untouched nerves to life. I actually nearly collapsed.

‘Ohh fuck Pete this is his first time … come on kneel down’.

So I did I got on all fours with my ultra sensitive arse in the air. The guy behind continued with his work on my arse, I could not cope it was a senses overload. His face was buried between the large cheeks of my arse, that tongue oh that tongue, I just gave in to the overpowering sensations as the other guy was wanking me.

Then I felt his tongue penetrate my arse and I just exploded, cum everywhere. When I had finished we talked about this being my first contact with guys and how amazing it had been. The conversation went on for a while and I gleaned that these guys are happily married and their wives know. It serves a purpose as their wives have become less interested in frequent sex, though as guys their libido has become stronger and not weaker.

I pondered that conversation for quite a while and concluded that a man’s needs never falter and we need the physical release more frequently than most women do. Also it is better to share with like minded guys than it is to just secretly masturbate, pay for prostitutes or worse have an affair. My mind and body certainly feel better my wife and I still have sex and now I don’t feel so frustrated nor guilty. This is not what we are taught. I am even wondering if my wife would approve.