I have had a lot of messages since my last post, but sadly can’t tell men where I go to meet men because of my membership status. I would love to upgrade, but can’t afford the risk of anyone knowing who I am. I have written a lot about my past and how I always knew I should have been a girl. A sex change doctor started me on gender reassignment, but my upper middle class family were shocked and stopped me. So the only way I can cope with my female self is to let rough aggressive men abuse and humiliate me. I am meeting yet another of these men on Thursday. I hope he will tell SH what he does to me. It is not going to be nice.