Analysing for growth… can you help?

20 Oct 2008

Hey…..
Now I apologise if this doesn’t make much sense to doesn’t to me right now… that’s the whole point…..
OK I shall be brave…….
When I first joined SH I was lucky enough to be invited to a Saturday night social within a few weeks of joining, referred by a friend and accepted as an ok sort of lady! ( thank you so much for that….)
I had also been chatting to someone who lived in the same area as the social and had arranged to meet with me on the Friday night
So off I trundled on the train to my destination…
Well I had a right laugh on the train journey… I am sure since I have joined SH I have a bubble above my head that says talk to me we can have a laugh or something…lol…but that’s another story…… who said you cant have fun on trains??? Lol…
I got to the hotel and checked into my room…… got my laptop out, and yes you guessed it logged onto sh…..just to make sure it was working…..lol…
By 7ish I was ready…..and for the first time….. I went to meet someone from SH…..
Oh yes I had the butterflies and the nerves too but I felt real good… we had chatted for ages and had connected really well.. so all in all I was really looking forward to meeting him……I also had this funny sort of fizzy-scared- knowing I was going to be ermmm not pushed but encouraged to expand my boundaries sort of feeling…..I still don’t know how to explain it……
Anyway…. The meet went well, even after me falling over a metal ring/hoop thingin in the pub garden floor and falling onto a bench, (like a right twat…..must have really made his night, and at that time hardly anyone knew about me being ill…..) we ended up in the hotel room…..
Ok… normalish meet you might think…..
But………..
As things progressed… this guy got me going so really started getting imaginative….. and doing things I would not of thought about… see I must be an innocent or something????!!! every time he went to do something that was different or I could see feel that it was going to end up as something different I started to get this fizzy feeling, it started in my toes and ended up coursing throughout my body……it is now getting hard to concentrate on mind is wandering….
All night long we got up to all sorts…..good job the hotel did room service cause by 3am we were both starving lol…..
Anyway… I digress…… back to the point…….
This guy. bless him.. Was able to bring out feelings in me, which I hadn’t felt for a long time…feelings that were nice and good and very, very exciting…
This is something that I have thought and wondered about for a while……
I was in chat the other day….. he was there, haven’t seen him about for ages…. And then he started talking to me… and all them feelings came flooding back…..
The things I am asking my self are these….
Is it because he was in control?
Is it because I like my boundaries being pushed?
Is it because I like to be (mildly?) dominated?
Is it because he was adventurous?
Is it because he was so confidant?
Is it because I am a nutter?
Do you get fizzy feelings?
If so why?
Can you help me understand what I am feeling?….
dunno

Over to you……………..

20 Oct 2008

wind
lp

20 Oct 2008

Quote by __random_orbit__
wind
lp

Accompanied by a bit o' summat creamy in the wrong/right dunno

place.
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20 Oct 2008

Sounds like pins and needles to me!! confused

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20 Oct 2008

Sounds like you had a great meet Willow.
Yes, I get butterflies. If I didn't then I would stop meeting.
Yes, on occasion I have had crazy-mad-wonderful sensations during a meet.
Just be careful of not overplaying the physical or equating the fact that you've had great sex with anything else. Don't overcomplicate. Sometimes great sex is just that, great sex.
Beware the too fizzy feelings - if they're in your stomach it's fine... it's when they're in your head that you're in trouble!
But hey, good on you. Sounds like a great meet. :thumbup:

21 Oct 2008

On re reading what I wrote……
Although I tried, I don’t believe I have expressed my self correctly…….
I have laid in bed these past few hours thinking about it, and (maybe because I slept on and off most of the day) feeling wide awake, I thought I would dare to sneak into SH towers whilst there was no one around ….. and see if I could make it more understandable….
It wasn’t about the meet being good sex or a great meet or anything like that (although yes it was good), it was about a feeling which I had. A feeling which I knew I had experienced before (and liked) but not had for a long that point in time… I used that first meet as a description, because that is the one that I am able to remember most detail about, and the fact that when I speak with this guy I feel it again……
But it wasn’t just about him…..as I have felt it before, and since the meet I have felt it again, although very briefly with someone else…..but for the life of me I can not remember what was happening at the time I felt it…..as too much other stuff was happening at the same time…..I just felt it and enjoyed it….. must keep pen and paper with her at all times… just incase…..
Maybe even the word fizz isn’t right either…..and no it wasn’t wind or anything like that……!!! Maybe buzzin????? (no I wasn’t using a vibe either….) or ermmm Can you remember the powder/crystals in a packet that the kids used to get from the sweetshop? You tip it onto ur tongue, shut ur mouth and then the inside of ur mouth explodes and fizzes? Well imagine that running through ur veins……
I am not talking about an orgasm or anything like was before during and after our meet that it kept happening (and still does) like someone flicking a switch on and it all starts….
But I don’t know what ‘it’ is lol……
Well has that made it any clearer? Maybe as clear as mud?
off to try and sleep now....
Hugs
kiss

21 Oct 2008

sound like a bloody good time to that he was very good for you.

22 Oct 2008

Willow, have you ever woken up, on a cold winter,s morning and stretched. Letting the warm sheet run delightfully over your body? Then your foot slips out the bottom of the bed and the cold air grabs at your toes and you pull back.
When you went on this meet, you were waking up. You stretched, and the man was the sheet, pleasantly running over your body. You did not stretch so far as to find that cold place beyond your comfort zone.
When ever you stretch, you can find places that you have not been before and discover you like can also find places and things that you do not like, that revolt your. You slowly build up a map, of what you like and do not like.
That is what I think happened to you.
Travis

22 Oct 2008

I think in the typical lives we lead as vanilla adults we rarely tend to feel that innocent excited buzz that we did as kids. Not a lot of things are “new” in an exciting way anymore.
Then you stepped out of the vanilla and into swinging.
Maybe it was a pure adrenalin rush?
in any other situation, had you not felt comfortable, it could have turned into anxiety and would have caused possible panic the next time you felt it, however as it was linked to a good event it now triggers as a pleasant buzzing sensation.??
xxx fem xx

22 Oct 2008

What t-mann and Fem said, added to the fact he just made you feel so good about yourself!
Thats what swinging is all about wink

22 Oct 2008

Hi....
Yes Travis.... I get where your coming from...You too fem, and I feel your both right....Like NWC said....
"added to the fact he just made you feel so good about yourself!
Thats what swinging is all about"
biggrin

Thanks you guys for helping me with this, not only has it answered a questiuon it has helped me understand more about me, and also is leading me into some new and very exciting experiences…mmmmmm
Thanks so much…
Luv you peeps……

22 Oct 2008

:lol:
I reckon you had too much fizzy pop to drink!!!!
Oh the shy ones, 3 months on, and look at them!!! :bounce:
kiss

22 Oct 2008

Me shy?....
Was I.......?????
:twisted: dont they say (who ever they are) that you have to watch the shy ones????
Although you might be right sarah... it could have been all that diet coke!
:giggle: :giggle:

22 Oct 2008

I 'think' I have the written evidence somewhere, that you are shy!!!
lol

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22 Oct 2008

:giggle::giggle::giggle:
Luv ya Sarah
kiss

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22 Oct 2008

Quote by Willow_female
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Luv ya Sarah
:kiss:

They all say that!!!! :twisted:

22 Oct 2008

Ohhh sarah... what you like.......
And you were so nice to me in them early days....
kiss

22 Oct 2008

now see i thought it was something to do with gordons growth model ffs
back to studying rolleyes

22 Oct 2008

I was gonna call it "My Big Toe".... but thought better of it...
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