Explanation, Apology, Request and Thankyou

15 Jan 2005

Firstly the explanation. I have not been posting recently due to the fact that I am going through an incredibly crappy stage in my life. I am today at the lowest point I have been in such a very long time. I can't remember a time in my life when I have cried as much as I have cried just recently. I have shut myself off from everyone and crawled into my little corner to lick my wounds because it's the only way I know how to deal with things, and now it's time to draw a line under all the hurt and start to pick myself up again before I get any lower.
Secondly the apology. To all of you who have contacted me to offer the hand of friendship, only to have me refuse in my own inimitable way by saying "I'm fine" - I apologise. Friends can only be friends when you let them, and I have refused all offers of help and friendship thinking that I could struggle through this on my own. I had started to make good friendships on here, but me being me, shut everyone out of my life because I felt it was the right thing to do. Also, in my own misery I neglected to realise that other people out there have feelings too. I was a complete shit, and I apologise.
Thirdly the request. In attempting to re-join the land of the living, I have in the past few days put my name forward for a couple of munches. The first one being the Yorkshire mini munch. I'm not feeling on top of the world at the moment but need to start getting out and about and meeting people. If, at the munch, I disappear off outside for a minute or two, it's not because I'm bored, it's not because I'm a miserable moo, it's just that I think it's going to be a bit difficult for me just getting the hang of being around people again, joining in the chat etc, and it maybe that I need to withdraw for a minute or two, take a couple of deep breaths and regain my composure. Confidence is wonderful when you have it, but when you've lost it and are trying to get it back again, it takes a while. Bear with me please. Try not to see it as me being aloof, it's just me trying to cope.
Lastly, I want to say thankyou. To the person who has devoted spare time to me recently I want you to know that although I hurt, I will in time come to realise that you were a true friend. I appreciate your kindness and sensitivity when I asked for the impossible, and one day, maybe, I will be able to smile at the memories.
Looking forward (with some trepidation) to meeting new friends and repairing past friendships
Jules
kiss

15 Jan 2005

You have a PM hun.....
(yes I know she`ll find it eventually, just showing I`m not an ignorant bitch ok?! silly

)
Venusxxx

15 Jan 2005

hi Juliett and welcome back . Im not sure if we`ve crossed paths on here in the past but just to say ,,,your post so obviously comes from the heart and all things take time,, so take time and keep posting , you know you have friends on here and im sure you`ll make new friends too (me biggrin

:D ) take care ,

15 Jan 2005

welcome back Jules, see you Wednesday
Bev & Chris xx

15 Jan 2005

never met, things can only get better,when you hit bottom bounce :bounce: soon you,ll be flying high :wink:

15 Jan 2005

Sorry to hear that you've been feeling so down Juliett, perhaps getting it out in the open like this and not bottling it all up inside is the first step to putting it all behind you. Well, lets hope so anyway.
See you on Wednesday, you know where, and mines a pint (of cola, might be driving) lol

Come out smiling Jules.
You have so many friends in here, all wishing you well.
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15 Jan 2005

keep hanging in there, i know just how you feel and how hard it is to get through but everyone says it will be ok in the end . i hope for both our sakes (and everyone else who is having a bad time) that they are right If you ever want to compare notes feel free to pm. we can then be miserable together. Just remember, every silver lining has a cloud lol

15 Jan 2005

xxxxxxxxxxxxx hun xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
.xX Joanne Xx.

15 Jan 2005

15 Jan 2005

Quote by juliett49
Firstly the explanation.
I have shut myself off from everyone and crawled into my little corner to lick my wounds because it's the only way I know how to deal with things, and now it's time to draw a line under all the hurt and start to pick myself up again before I get any lower.
Jules

Jules,
Dont feel bad about your current situation..... These words have kept me going on more than one occasion.
There is an old Scottish proverb that says, 'I am wounded but I am not slain. I shall lay me down and bleed a while, then I shall rise and fight again.'
Get back up there !
Ian

16 Jan 2005

Thankyou
To all who replied, and all who pm'd, a huge and heartfelt thankyou. I won't reply individually to everyone, cos you've all been so nice that it would take me forever, but I have a warm glow inside me knowing that people out there do care.
I'm sitting here right now after having several pm's from an incredibly nice lady, who I hope in time can become a friend, knowing that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I can't see the light at the moment, but I know it's there, and I know in time that I'm going to be working my way towards it.
There is one last thing I should like to say, I never edit my threads, I never change what I was thinking at the time, but the thankyou section at the bottom of my original thread needs to be amended. It has come to light over the past night, that the person concerned wasn't such a good friend after all. So I should just like to add that despite your messing with my head at a time when I was already so down that I needed a friend, I will pick myself up and get on with life. It's the only way forward.
Jules
kiss

16 Jan 2005

Quote by Ian_Mids
'I am wounded but I am not slain. I shall lay me down and bleed a while, then I shall rise and fight again.'

Wow, I've never heard that before - what a wonderful phrase!
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16 Jan 2005

Quote by MISSCHIEF
'I am wounded but I am not slain. I shall lay me down and bleed a while, then I shall rise and fight again.'

Wow, I've never heard that before - what a wonderful phrase!
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I think it's wonderful too. Thankyou Ian, it makes me realise that it's ok to be hurt for a while, and that I will get up and start to live life again, and hopefully very soon.
Thankyou
kiss

16 Jan 2005

being new on here,just reading all the above just proves that im in the right place, like you jules, take care and look after yourself.x

16 Jan 2005

sorry to hear you,ve been feeling down juliette, i,m sure once you,ve started to go out again and meet people you,ll start to feel a lot better smile

i know exactly how you,re feeling i was feeling the same a couple of weeks ago ... but now i,ve started the road back to sanity, wink

: and i,m addicted to this forum again redface

the quote from ian -mids is sooo very true to how i,m feeling right now, so good luck
luv ann xx

16 Jan 2005

glad to have your posts back Jules.....
and more importantly......you
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