message from fabio

8 Dec 2004

i honestly didn't have any idea of what to call this as a subject... so just went with the above...
anyway a lot of you know or may have noticed that i have been feeling just a bit fragile lately, whether it has been the subject of feeling comfortable about being a larger man in swinging circles... or knowing what happened to my friend in the crash a few weeks ago (the people who were at blue's party will know the details) and it has really made me re-evaluate a lot of things.....
I am a shy person by instinct and really need to get to know people before i even dream of opening up, the best way i have heard it being described as is being an "introverted extrovert" and being honest in the last few weeks i have been posting less because for everything that has happend i do feel like an outsider looking in...
and for the first time in my time being here it got me thinking "is swinging heaven really for me?"
i came to the conclusion that would miss you all if i didn't go to the parties and the munches, and cutting off talking to the faboulous people i do via pm was never an option i was considering...
but i am not going to talk much in the forums in the near future.. only if i really do have something to say that i feel will make a difference or give someone a different perspective in a subject....
why??? because at the moment i need to find me.. i suppose you could call this my first "mid life crisis" ... i am not flouncing, i have seen what that kind of ridicule can do to people and it is not nice... but by doing it this way i can just tell everyone....
if there is anyone who wants to keep in touch me via pm i would love that.....heck anyone who wants my mobile number can have that as well....
i will be back in the forums regually again at some point.... just when i am at peace and comfortable with myself, then i won't feel as if i am cheating you by seeing the real me
sean xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

8 Dec 2004

Good luck mate; you take care of yourself.
We'll be looking forward to when you feel well enough to return again...

8 Dec 2004

Not good news Sean.
Really hope you manage to find whatever it is that you are seeking, but don't stay away too long kiss

Tracy-Jayne

8 Dec 2004

(((((hugs)))))))
Sean you are one of the kindest people I have ever talked to.
I enjoy our conversations and will miss your posts around the place.
Keep in touch and know that you are thought of quite fondly. Speak soon chick.
kiss

Gem. x

8 Dec 2004

Well Sean - you really are a top bloke. I think many people find this site certainly takes their journey through life on an interesting turn. I can completely relate to your decision to take stock of your situation and see where you are going.
I really wish you well and look forward to seeing you back posting again, when the time is right.
Cheers
Ash

8 Dec 2004

Sean you are one of the lovliest people ive had the chance to meet from such a bloody nice bloke,i just hope you come back happy biggrin

8 Dec 2004

Sean hunni, we are sorry to hear that you are having difficulty at this time.
We have had the pleasure of your company a couple of times now and we think you are a great guy. You did a fabulous job organising the NE Munch and for that we owe you a lot. You helped put us in contact with so many nice people and wouldn't have managed that without your help.
Just you go on and find yourself and come back when you are that fun loving happy person that we all knew.
It has been hard watching you drifting from us.
Take care hunni.
Chat soon.
Gill & Del x kiss

8 Dec 2004

Sean, sorry to hear you are feeling this way but I have noticed you have not been at your best when I have seen you recently. Thank you for expressing how you feel for the is almost exactly how I am at the moment. Think I must be on my Nth mid-life crises. Understand your need to go away and find yourself. A break is good. When you do return we'll be here to welcome you back!
All the best mate!
LC

8 Dec 2004

Sean, we have both met and liked you. Do take care and we`ll look forward to your posts which were always thoughtful and meaningful anyway .
foxys x

8 Dec 2004

Sean
remember where we all are, and come back soon.

8 Dec 2004

Hun, I have sent you a PM to say how I feel.....but I must say, it's fine to go find yourself but don't forget that we're here...... kiss

8 Dec 2004

Sorry to hear that Fabio, never met you but always thought you came across as a really top bloke from your posts.
Hope everything comes back into balance quickly for you.
cool

8 Dec 2004

Best of luck, Sean - you will be sorely missed. sad

You are still coming to Clare & Steve's party though, aren't you?
~Reese! surprised

8 Dec 2004

Don't be gone to long I love the blue bloke look you have lol
Your a really nice bloke were glad we met you take care
Molly xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
passionkiss

8 Dec 2004

Ah Sean
You will flounce back!!!!!!!!!. Anway we have never really chatted so you know you cant leave with out at least one chat with me :shock: :shock: :shock: lol

Finding yourself is good. I should know and it does help when you spend a little time away to do it. Take care and have a brilliant christmas!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Corriexxxxxx

8 Dec 2004

I have PM you Fabio, but take care if your minds made up and dont be gone long, as Reese said your still coming to Clares & Steves party arent you?
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx kiss

8 Dec 2004

Good luck in finding yourself mate, don't be stranger, just take the time you need smile

8 Dec 2004

:cry: awwwwwwwwwww fabio i can understand how u feel darl.......We feel sumtimes that the swinging circle can b quite clickie but i knows 1 thing for sure we r so glad we got to meet u at the last 2 parties n we r hoping we will meet up again.......You take care n feel free to pm but plzzzzzzzzzzz saty intouch ok koz yr a fab guy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx northlincscpl xxxxxxxxx sad

8 Dec 2004

Fabio you take all the time you need mate,
however we want the revitalised Fabio back as soon as possible tho!!!!! biggrin

8 Dec 2004

hugs Sean, you know I am fond of you hunny and funny enough I've just been talking about you at the teesside meet and don't worry it was all good wink

You're a great person and I hope you can sort yourself out, but take all the time you need and I hope things get better for you soon.
MQ xxxx

9 Dec 2004

AWWW will miss reading ya posts hun xxxxx keep intouch hun sending ya apm with my e mail on xxxx

9 Dec 2004

okay...apology time! i think i scared a few people with the last message and that was the last thing i meant to do......
so just to say that i am going to the states for a few days over xmas to see mate in the car crash....i think that will put my mind at ease.....
i am still going to all the parties/munches that i have my name down for.....you bloody can't get rid of me that easily.......
thank you to all the people that pm'd me...
sean xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

9 Dec 2004

Sean,
I've only met you face to face once, & we didn't get much time to chat but I certainly hope to do so in the not to distant future. At the Teeside Social last night, lots people said some really nice things about you. As others have said, we all need time away to think from time to time but this place would not be the same without you. As far as I am concerned, you are an integral part of the scene in this region & I know many other people feel the same way.

9 Dec 2004

Quote by fabio grooverider
so just to say that i am going to the states for a few days over xmas to see mate in the car crash....i think that will put my mind at ease.....

Good on ya Sean, it's obvious that it's been bothering you a lot and I'm sure your mate will appreciate you making the effort to go and see him.

i am still going to all the parties/munches that i have my name down for.....you bloody can't get rid of me that easily.......

GREAT STUFF!!! We want Sean at our parties!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DJ swinger is trying to arrange something for around March time next year, make sure you're on the list!
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