I was aware of what I wanted and what I was doing but the prospect was scary but also exciting being that my hubby was the only man I had ever had sex with. I also had feelings and thoughts about, are these thoughts normal wanting to explore things sexually with another man. I felt we were odd as it isn't something you can discuss with family and friends.
So we started looking for sites that would link us up with others with the same mindset as us, we knew we wanted to talk to others so looked for a site with chat rooms and then discovered this site and decided to join, I was shaking so much, we were taking the plunge I thought OMG what was I entering into but I could feel the excitement of the unknown.
We paid our money and logged in for the first time and looked to explore the chat rooms. Just to observe what went on in these places. I entered a chat room with hubby by my side hesitantly and with trepidation. Hubby urged me on with support.
As we entered a room all these words started scrolling up, it took me a while (being a complete novice on chatting online in any form) to realise it was people chatting in a chat room.

I said to hubby what do I do now. So I thought I would type Hi all we are new and just joined for the first time today, please be gentle with me. Mrs minx typing and hubby by my side

Realising now that is the worse thing I could have said. :lol:
I couldn't understand why all these people started whispering me and wanted to chat to someone they never knew.
Looking back I was so naive in those days but being here has taught me a lot. Not only that we are not alone in the world with our thoughts but also there is a whole new world within the walls of SH to be discovered and if you ignore the fools there are a lot of nice friendly, normal pervy people about.