Since the feel bad factor kicked in.

31 Aug 2004

I`ll bite the bullet and share a PM I sent a good friend.

Well, I know that isn`t the reason I originally joined this site, but I can`t deny that the open-mindedness and acceptance from most hasn`t taken off for me in a surprisingly huge way. I have done much soul-searching since I joined, but unlike many others, it hasn`t been of the `why am I here, should I be here` type, but more of the `what else is around the corner` type.
I know where my issues stemmed from, I also know how this effects me, what behaviours of mine are directly linked to the treatment I received in the past, and how I am likely to react to certain treatments in the present. There really isn`t much left for me to learn on that score, simply things to work on.
I also know that by nature I am an extrovert, that if I wasn`t, the social disasters of my youth probably wouldn`t hit me as hard as it did. I can honestly say that in here (or more accurately at the munches) I am for the first time able to explore my freedom to be myself with others...........and it rocks! :bounce:
It`s that freedom which turned me into the loud tart I was at the NW munch, who was able to grab a poor helpless guy from ----- called ----- and give him a huge snog ;) ,and also to make a complete turd of myself on the Karaoke! Did I have self-recriminations the next day? Hell yes! But these doubts didn`t outweigh the fun I had with it! I will probably calm down a little when I`ve stopped exploring this new turn of life, I`m simply making up for lost time.
I`m not sure people know on here just how valuable this has been for me. At 32 years old I`m still discovering who I am in relation to others, that has been a huge area of my life I have missed out on, and I`ve often thought of posting as much, but there is still a little bit of me who holds back. I`ve posted thankyou`s before, but they have been in the face of it, still rather restrained. .
Maybe one day ;)
Anyway, that`s probably more of a reply than you expected from this soppy loud tart, so I`ll shut up now!

Maybe one day ;)

Today seems like a good day smile

Venusxxx

31 Aug 2004

Hope its ok just to post a wee smile!! But thats all I can say!! So again :D

31 Aug 2004

VenusnMars
No matter how much we hold ourselves back in life, eventually the real you gets out. be yourself and you will feel better about it. people will, erm take you as they find you. I always find you to be someone I like to add a thread to.....
YY

31 Aug 2004

OMG! Thank God someone replied..........
I was beginning to feel like a right twat! redface

Venusxxx

31 Aug 2004

And I thought looking at the avitar you were a left tit?

31 Aug 2004

Well I for one enjoyed seeing you being yourself
hope to see it again real soon hunni biggrin

31 Aug 2004

Ah bless Venus hun,your fantastic,i for one think that your a lovely wonderful woman,and can't wait to see you again at the Notts munch kiss

I can't bvelieve your being restrained,what the fuck are you like when your unrestrained :shock:

31 Aug 2004

Quote by yin yang
And I thought looking at the avitar you were a left tit?

:doh:

Steve, best you ask Mars, he`ll be on later wink

Venusxxx

31 Aug 2004

I think you great too Venus, and Mars as well as no doubt he feeling left out but he well worth chasing down for a chat as well peeps. Wish I had been able to make munch and see you, maybe at Nottingham...

31 Aug 2004

Quote by tallnhairy
I think you great too Venus, and Mars as well as no doubt he feeling left out but he well worth chasing down for a chat as well peeps. Wish I had been able to make munch and see you, maybe at Nottingham...

It was a post to reflect how great the site is, not me...........
I already know I am! :smug:
As for Mars, he is isn`t he? :inlove:
Venusxxx

31 Aug 2004

venus!

i will only say . . . you have reduced me to tears! again! i really need to get me 'ead round the "hard and blokish" thing eh?
a bloody brave post! it's entirely that kinda honesty, amid all the bollox, that keeps me here!
neil x x x x passionkiss

31 Aug 2004

Quote by VenusnMars
[I already know I am! :smug:
Venusxxx

Nothing like loving yourself is there????? lol

:lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:

31 Aug 2004

U go girl...don't let anything hold u bk......as alot of people say...life is to short.....

31 Aug 2004

:thumbup:

31 Aug 2004

Hi Venus,
You're a woman of many deep rivers, but as they bubble to the surface you're able to free yourself from the rains of the past.
"Just be yourself, and allow the joys of the future mask the pain of yesterday." Told to me by a wise old lady, who knew what pain and joy were all about, at the age of 101.I've always remebered it, when reflecting on what might have been.
You're a very lovely lady, in all repects.
Keith

31 Aug 2004

Quote by Keith3006
Told to me by a wise old lady, who knew what pain and joy were all about, at the age of 101.

She wrote to me when she was 111. ooops!! Sorry, that should have read: She wrote to me when she was ill. :doh: confused

:?

:lol:

31 Aug 2004

Then let there be rock, Venus! :twisted:
Heads down, no non-sense, mindless boogie is what I say! :P
Let rip hunni...don't dream it, be it.............. :twisted:
Great post! Rock and fucking roll!
LC

31 Aug 2004

Venus,
Do what you want, when you want, with whoever you want. Be who you want, when you want. Admitting to ourselves that we are who we want, allows us the total freedom from guilt or shame. No one else has the right to be you, in the same way, you have no right to be another. Attmepting to live our lives in this manner is not an easy path, but a path filled with peace, serenity and love.
Lots of love, hugs and kisses
Little
XXX