Vain women...

Quote by Aurora_female
Ok here goes...
I am a chat and cam addict I admit it. Am I vain? I don't think so, personally I think I'm a confident woman, but like everyone else, I have my own hang ups and I am far from perfect.
I'm generally the "talking tits" I don't cam my face due to the fact that a few years ago a lone male approached me in the supermarket with my kids present, to ask if it was me!!
Am I "up my own ass"? Probably at times yes, it depends on our mood at the time as human beings, but thankfully there is always someone there to pull my head out with a quick "pop".
At times I can seem harsh but to be honest I don't flower things up and I do know what I want, I try to be polite but my humour is dry and yes sometimes downright dirty, I'm not everyone's cup of tea and I accept that.
Personally I love the banter, be it camming or not, but there are times I log out in my "flounce" vowing never to go in chat again... Why? well, this happens on a regular basis;
Whispers; Some nights you can lose half a page in seconds, I am there to chat and enjoy myself, not have uninvited whispers losing all my conversation because they want exclusivity for what is usually a "hi, how are you?" or "show me your t*ts".
I don't see why I should turn my whispers off, (which i do a lot of the time) but I also have pvt conversations with some too, they are my whispers, I should be able to use them how I want. Even when you turn your whispers off you can get abuse, because you are ignoring someone, it does not tell them they are off and you can't actually see them!!
Chat; Ordinarily I try to say hello to everyone but as has been said, you lose track and it can go very fast, you can innocently miss some or you can be in the middle of a conversation be it main or private. Then you have the accusations that you are "rude, ignorant, arrogant, bitch" etc. etc.
The insults I have had over the years astound me at times, sometimes it does bother me (yes it is cyber, but I have feelings too), other times it's water off a ducks back.
I have in the past been downright insulted and abuse hurled at me, purely because I missed a "hello" or "thank you", others have turned nasty because I would not "perform" on cam or god forbid I refused their "can i come round now and sort you out?"
I have been accused of being a "paid lady", I have been offered many gifts, even money, to spend time with people, all of which I hasten to add, I have refused. Refusal or another re-buff can bring out the worst in some.
Some will say "why go back in chat?"
I adore it, yes it annoys me at times, but you know what?, there are some great people in there too and I personally have spent many a night in banter, debate, compliments and fits of giggles.
Sadly, most of the time, whether you cam or not, I have come to expect a certain amount of abuse from a minority, I put it down to diversity, we will come across all kinds in life so why should cyber be any different. I don't tar everyone with the same brush, but before anyone says, "vain" "up her own arse", step back and think, a lot is a protection mechanism and the genuine blokes tend to get past that with time