Hi,
I really need to chat to someone about my long standing desire to watch my wife have sex with other men.
It excites me to imagine her being intimate with another man or men, with me watching. It's almost becoming an obsession.
I would not consider myself a cuckold, although I know many would disagree. For me It's not about being dominated, or wanting to feel inadequate, or even wanting to feel humiliated. I'm a perfectly capable and confident person and love my wife deeply. I would give my life to protect her.
I have no desire to push her into doing something dangerous, or to do something she doesn't want to do. It would have to be something she enjoys.
She is fully aware of me feelings but hasn't indulged me. Although she has had sex with several other men during our marriage, without my knowledge until she confessed all several years ago during a cleansing confess all chat we were having. I pushed her for more details and she told me quite a bit, which was so erotic and seemed to give her a buzz too. But she's been reluctant to discuss the subject since that day.
Having these desires in your head and being unable to to talk about them is extremely frustrating. It's not exactly a subject you can discuss with friends, workmates or family, not unless I want to freak them out of course.
I would love to hear from men or women who have some understanding or experience of this subject, or even someone who would be interested in discussing it with me.
Mar2syl
