I know it’s a strange title but it’s a genuine question. I’m happily married with 3 children and I have never strayed or even come close yet I am now in what I would call a ‘relationship’ with another woman. That being said I still don’t consider myself to be a lesbian in the usual meaning of the term so let me explain. I’m going to keep our identity a secret just in case someone we know reads these so the names are made up. I’m 45 brunet and slim, I have a large chest which as you would expect attracts attention. My best friend ‘Hanna’ is 36 and also married with children. She things she’s plain looking but I think she’s quite pretty. She has pale blue eyes and light blond hair, she has always said that she is jealous of my breasts because she is quite small. She is madly in love with her husband who is in the navy so is away a lot. We have been friends since school and other than f she goes on holiday with her family we have seen each other most days for the last 20 years. But until the beginning of the year it all changed. The two of us went on a hen weekend, it was great fun and as usual we shared a room to help with costs. The whole weekend was one long party but the Saturday was the best day of the weekend. We all went to a night club that had male and female strippers which was a good laugh plus we had a little too much to drink, there where prized for the best pole dance and stuff light that. Hanna won a prize for something that neither of us can remember and she carried around a box the whole evening. We got back to our hotel room at around 3am worse for wear but not falling over drunk. Hanna decided to have a shower so I decided to open her prize. I was horrified when I pulled out a strap on cock! It was skin colour and if it was real would have been very impressive. I shouted to Hanna about what I had done and she comes out of the bathroom in a towel, the two of us just laughed so much our knees gave way. Hanna rushed back to wash soap off her hair but called for me to put it on so I did putting it on over my skirt. When she came back out, now with a hotel dressing gown on I pranced around with this ‘cock’ bouncing which was hilarious. We were exhausted and sitting on the floor when Hanna leans over and gives me a ’hand job’ ( more giggles) but It actually felt quite realistic. Hanna told me to lay on the bed so not thinking anymore of it I jumped on the bed and lay on my back with this ‘cock’ springing bold upright. I was still giggling but Hanna’s face became quite serious, she lay next to me and put her lips over the cock as though she was giving a guy a blow job then jumps to her feet drops her gown and climbs back onto the bed taking it in her hand. I was still laughing and asked her what she was doing but she told me to hush and straddled me so the ‘cock’ was between her legs and then lowered herself onto it and slowly started to move up and down. To begin with it was fully but then it started to look and feel quite erotic and I will admit to having a fleeting feeling of wanting to touch her breasts which I think Hanna could sense because as soon as it entered my head she took my hands and placed them on her chest so I was cupping her breasts. This went on for a few minutes until she had very serious look on her face. She opened my blouse and lifted my bra letting my breasts fall out and the two of us massaged each other’s breasts and as ridiculous as it sounds, it felt natural. Hanna slid off the cock and went down so it was back in her mouth before moving up and letting her tongue slide up my tummy until her tongue flicked my left nipple before it disappeared into her mouth. For the first time in my life a woman was sucking my breasts. Her groaning and her hips gently thrusting we so erotic I found my self unconsciously touching my right breast until she moved my hand and started sucking that one. Hanna then pressed them together and flicked first one nipple then the other. I said we shouldn’t be doing this but as soon as I did her tongue entered my mouth and we kissed more passionately that I had ever kissed me husband and we did so for some time until she pulled back, lay on her back pulling me over and just said ‘ fuck me’. I still don’t consider myself to be a lesbian but I took my new artificial cock and pushed it into my friend and we fucked. Hanna grabbing, squeezing and sucking my breasts and her nipples pressing hard on the palm of my hand and it was amazing. I let my breasts swing over her mouth as I thrust into my best friend. With her legs wrapped round my back we fucked like a man and woman until we both reached an orgasm which as far as I was concerned was deeper than those experienced with my husband and then we just collapsed and looked at each other with a ‘what the hell have we done’ look. I took the strap on off and sat on the edge of the bed. Hanna asked me to take my skirt off and without thinking I did. She then put the ‘cock’ on and we just looked at each other. Neither of us really said anything but it was obvious what we wanted to do. I lay on my back and positioned herself between my legs and with my breast back in her mouth she slid into me and we made love. The feeling of her nipples on my chest and a thick long cock stretching me thrusting into me was excruciatingly erotic. The love making became more intense and evolved into plain and simple fucking and it was amazing. I took her small breasts and solid nipples completely in my mouth and I sucked until she screamed then as we came she screamed again mixed with my wailing. Exhausted I lay there with Hanna head on my chest. We didn’t speak much but slept for no more than a couple of hours before we got up. Nothing was said for a few days until I called into her home to talk about what we had done but there was little talking. I walked in and her mouth covered mine and her fingers opened my jeans and her hand covered my pussy. We managed to make it to the bedroom where we fucked again, this time without the ‘cock’. It wasn’t gentle it was more of an animal fuck almost a fight both if us I guess trying to justify what we were naked and in bed and sucking and biting and finger fucking another woman’s pussy before feeding wet fingers into our mouths grinding against each other and having better orgasms that with our husbands. We both work and so this is now an event enjoyed two or three times a week when the kids are in school and we rush home in our lunch hour leaving just enough time to shower and get back to work. And still I don’t’ feel attracted to other women and neither does Hanna. We have talked and have come to the conclusion that we are just frustrated friends to are now fuck buddies.