I’m 50 years old, have been married for 25 years and have two children. I am successful at work and have all the trappings of success. My wife finds intercourse painful but she does masturbate in front of me frequently. I’ve spent many years sexually frustrated and masturbate over porn when I’m alone. Over the years I took an interest in bi and gay porn and found it turned me on. Late last year I visited a gay sauna and was really turned on by what I saw. I didn’t participate but I did get excited watching others getting off together. I returned a few weeks later and sat in the sauna I got chatting to a young lad. As we chatted he was wanking his cock and it was huge with a big bulbous head. I don’t know what came over me but I just asked him straight out if I could suck his cock. He readily agreed and I kneeled in front of him terrified and took it into my mouth, it was amazing, I licked the head and ran my tongue around that big pink helmet. It was the best feeling in the world. I sucked and licked it for ages and it was so big and hard. I wanked him to completion and licked up all the cum running down the shaft of his cock. I looked up and saw a young Asian guy watching. Without a word being spoken his cock was in my mouth. He seemed shy though and said let’s get a room. The young Asian who was so attractive led me upstairs, took me in a room playing porn and locked the door. We started kissing and rubbed each other’s cocks. He sank to his knees and took me in his mouth. I was hard and so turned on. After a short time he got up and I sank to my knees and sucked his very long cock. Holding the back of my head my new lover asked if I wanted to fuck. God did I want to fuck. He rolled a condom onto his long cock, opened a sachet of lube and positioning me on all fours on the bed he lubed me and started edging his cock into me. It didn’t go in easily but eventually it did and whilst it hurt a little the pleasure was immense and I kneeled there with a raging hard on taking a big cock up my arse having the most sexual pleasure I’d had in years. He fucked me hard and I felt him grow and ejaculate... it was so good. In no time I was wearing a condom and was sliding my fat cock in and out of his beautiful arse. It was tight and felt so good. I exploded in no time and I felt so sexually satisfied. I now visit the sauna about once a fortnight, sometimes more often. I always suck a few cocks and I usually get fucked and usually fuck someone. I find men so attractive, I love kissing and like lots of bodily contact. I no longer have any sexual contact with my wife and never think about initiating any contact. That said I still love her and want us to live together but I’m getting my sexual kicks elsewhere. The strange thing is... I visit a gay sauna, I kiss men, I suck cock, I fuck men and I let men fuck me but I don’t feel gay. I still love women but somehow it’s easier to have sex with men and it feels different and naughty. Anyone else feel that way?