When we first married I was quite jealous to start with but as time passed by that mellowed after a few years I was quite laid back about Judith I think it comes down to trust It was after that I started having rude thought about Judith going with someone else I knew it was only fantasy and it would never happen but something did happen and at the time I wouldn't know to this day if she had not told me years later I would be no wiser now Munch later my fantasy developed into me looking at porn and that fueled my fantasy I think, I would often sneak a wank thinking about it also at the time we had kids small and it seemed Judith was more interested in the kids than me and our sex life dwindled at the same time my fantasy became more obsessive and something I really wanted to happen, this happened over a couple of years or more, in the end I dropped some hints which passed Judith by more time passed the kids were teenagers by then, at about that time I used some more hints but more directed ones, she picked up one of them asking what was it I meant and I bottled it and backed off, my next attempt I did suggest it outright and did I get shot down in flames More time past we had one of the kids move out and sometime later the other looked like they would do the same, it be about then Judith started looking for a job in the end she found one, it be a few months after she started work she spoke about a bloke she worked with a couple of times the truth was I didn't take much notice, sometime later his name came up again, it still didn't mean anything to me things carried on a normal, Judith and a couple of her friend have a night out from time to time she don't always go, it was after one of her girls night out she came home acting a bit odd once more it past me me by also the following week she had another night out not unheard of Over he next moth or so she did have more nights out than usual maybe but once more I didn't take much notice, at the time I was busy sorting a run down flat out for our daughter and her boyfriend to move into so most of my evenings were taken up doing that It was after she moved out and we had the house to our self it was strange being alone after all this time no kids around, we started talking about doing things for our self It was when this was going on Judith said something like we can do things that we couldn't do with kids at home maybe things you have want to do I went off talking about holidays weekends away and alike that is the lines I was thinking on It took a few weeks to go past and Judith was talking about how married life changed us having a family and so on that lead her on to saying when we first married how jealous I was of her if someone looked at her I would get in a mood and how I have changed, we talked about how silly I was and Judith said I had changed saying what I had suggested some time ago I did feel embarrassed when she said that, a little later when we were having our once a week fun, she asked if this happened with someone else what would I say or do would I go back to being Jesus, I told her no I don't think I would mind Not that long after that she bought the subject up again somehow it came round to me saying I be happy if she found another man, there was a good bit of talk about would it harm our relationship and things like that What I didn't know was she had someone in mind the bloke from work and not only was she very friendly with him at work he had already taken her out a few time when she was supposed to be on her girls night out and she must of liked him a lot and was close to letting him part her pussy lips but wasn't quite sure if she could handle the deception also that came from many years before when she did have an affair one I had no idea about, she had found it a problem going behind my back, that is the way she is she don't like lies or secrets, any way she managed then as she suffered another mans cock for a month or two without me knowing and to this day I don't know why she wanted to be honest this time Moving on Judith steered a few conversations round to that subject and what she was looking for was me to give her the go ahead to get screwed, at the same time my old fantasy had kicked in but neither of us seemed to want to come right out and say okay do it, in the end she said she been asked out by someone at work after a chat about it I was saying there is no harm in going, she had given me the line they were both interested in the same thing some rubbish on them lines but that gave both of us the opening we needed So she went out with this guy his name was Chris this happened a couple of times all the time Judith maintained they were friends that is all it was It soon became a regular thing it could be to the cinema or a meal lots of things, I was not saying anything I was now hoping she would get laid and wanking at the thought of it happening, at some stage my wife was laid she was put to the pork sword but I had then no idea it had happened, I was still thinking go on let him fuck you and come home and tell me, no that didn't happen It was to be sometime later at a wedding reception we went to, Judith some how got quite drunk she is not a drinker, well I got her home she was quite sloshed she was saying things that didn't make much sense as people sometimes do in that state I had put her to bed and she was saying what a wonderful husband I was, it was after that as she went to sleep she said Chris's name and muted something the words I picked out were cock bigger and yours I wasn't sure I got that right but it was enough for me get a hard on and hove a wank as she lay beside me out of it Next morning Judith was not to well, I left it till the evening before saying any thing, we were in bed and she was saying I do hope I didn't show myself up last night, I didn't show myself up last night, I told her she didn't it was when she got in the air she seemed pissed, she said oh good no one noticed then, I said no, then I said you must of wished Chris was with you, she asked what I meant, so I said you told me he has a big cock she went quiet before asking what I meant the atmosphere became charged I could see my wife looking for something to say, she tried to say she didn't know what I meant I stayed calm as she struggled, there would be a lot to go into but the outcome was a confession,she had sleep with him, at first it was only once but it then emerged it was a number of times he was nabbing her on a regular basis, there was no excuses she could make, she told me the full story, it went back some time to when she first mentioned him she said the firs time she sore him she fancied him, then he started taken notice of her then he asked her out so she use the girls nights out to meet him, I asked when he first fucked her, that seemed to have happened after our discussion about how thing have changed and I was no longer being jealous, she also made a big mistake she started saying the last time, then clammed up, I didn't miss it but let it go, she carried on saying going behind my back really got to her, then she went on saying she never wanted to heart me and a lot of things like that once more to much to go into now I try to get it out of her what Chris was like and Judith was not forthcoming that much apart from thing about him as a bloke The thing that surprised me talking like that aroused me and when I put her hand on it she was bit surprised as well, that ended up with us having sex, I am sure that told my wife I wasn't to upset, I did perform well that night but that left a question of what to do now, if you think its worth it I can tell you