I'm a happily married early-50s woman who regularly fucks men other than my husband. The 'me' of 10 years ago would be shocked, but I have a much more satisfying and fulfilling sexual life than just about anyone I know, certainly much better than in my early 40s. There is a fair amount of literature that suggests that women and men are wired differently when it comes to sex. Many women in long-term relationships have a drop off in libido and lose some of the desire to have sex with their partner. In a long-term relationship that sense of falling in love, the newness, the sense of discovery, and even the romance usually wanes and is replaced by feelings of security, trust and more mature feelings of love. This is in many ways very good for the overall health and strength of the primary relationship, but in the area of sexuality it gets tricky. Unlike men, women’s libido seems to be tied more to emotional factors such as romance, newness, and sexual discovery, things that all drop off in a long-term relationship. So, while women feel more love and commitment for their spouse, they also experience a decrease in the desire for sex with that partner. Because we have a cultural missive against infidelity, many of these women and their partners simply have to live within a marriage where the female partner has decreasing libido. Women in new sexual relationships, however, often feel a surge in libido. These findings have prompted some forward-thinking researchers to suggest that a way to keep the female partner’s libido high in long-term, committed relationships is to allow her to have sexual relations outside of her primary relationship. This will keep the primary relationship strong and solid as well as give the woman a sexual charge that will be there not only with her and her lover but will also carry over into her primary relationship. My husband and I have been practicing this kind of arrangement for ten years now, in short, I have become a 'hotwife'. I get to fuck all the men I want while hubby remains faithful to me. What he gets is to have me when I return late in the evening from my 'dates' and fuck me silly until the next morning, with the same arrangement when I bring the other man home and we do it in our marital bed with hubby having me after my lover leaves But we've added a twist. Hubby can't fuck me again until I return from my next date. My husband is happy with this arrangement. I’ve been willing to give my husband the same sexual freedom he gives to me, but not having other women seems to work for him since he says watching me with another man or hearing about me being with another man gives him all the extramarital satisfaction he needs. I was occasionally unfaithful to hubby without his knowledge two or three times a year for about five years before we started this 'lifestyle', and I found it sexually affirming as a woman, satisfyingly wicked and thrilling, and, most important, I loved it and couldn't give it up for having other men made me much happier in my sex life, more sexually confident, and a much more sexual woman in general. It was a lot easier than I thought for an almost middle aged somewhat overweight woman to get men. When I glanced at other men, I immediately imagined them as potential sex partners, and they would pick up on what my glances meant and some would approach me for sex. That's when I learned that letting other men fuck me 'bareback' and taking their cum up me was wonderful. My first extramarital lover gave me such a fantastic come with his fingers and mouth that I was still out of it when he immediately shoved his cock up me without a condom. I didn't care since his cock felt wonderful and his fucking just was a continuation of the orgasm I had just experienced. By the time I realized we were without protection, he had me on the verge of another come and I was actually yelling for him to come in me. When he did, the feel of his hot cum splashing inside sent me into orbit. For me, as with many women I suppose, a great deal of sexual experience is mental. To know the unprotected cock of another man is sliding inside of me, inside of this pussy I should keep exclusive for my husband … well; to say that it’s hot is an understatement. But how can a woman do that to her husband? After all, a married woman has to keep something exclusive for her husband and what is more personal, more exclusive than letting you’re a man come inside of you? But even as I thought this I have to admit there was a small, prurient part of me that felt a little thrill. I mean it’s so taboo and dirty, kind of the very last step in adultery. I mean what’s more of an act of infidelity than to let a man who isn’t your husband shoot all his hot sticky cum deep inside your cunt? The second time I did it was with the same Marc who came in me unannounced that first time. I can still remember nearly every moment: Marc and me naked in bed, him on top of me between my legs rubbing his cock around my clit to get me hot. He gave me a sheepish grin, then pushed forward and I felt a man other than my husband pushing his naked cock into my pussy, sliding skin-on-skin deep inside my wetness. Oh, my God! It felt fabulous. I just groaned, wrapped my legs around him, and enjoyed the sensation of getting fucked bareback and fucking my pussy back into him as he ploughed me with his big hard cock. Because of admonition to him that first time, he said, “I’m getting close. Should I pull out?” “No! Don’t pull out. I want to feel you come inside me!” He didn’t need to be told twice. He fucked me like a wild man, pounding my pussy into submission. I was beside myself with excitement, moaning, panting, clawing at the sheets, then scratching his back with my fingernails as his bare cock pistoned furiously inside me, driving me to higher and higher states of arousal. When I felt him jerking and pulsing, knowing that meant he was flooding my married cunt with his seed, I had a full-throated screaming orgasm. We lay like that for a good long time, clinging to each other, kissing and enjoying the glow of what we had just done. Since then I now treat myself to the privilege of hot, illicit, extra-marital sex letting a man who is not my husband stick his bulging cock inside my cunt and shoot his hot, wet, sticky cum up me, feeling his cock twitching and spurting is the most primal sexual pleasures I experience. It is the ultimate fulfilment of the sex act. And what is more of a confirmation of a fervent coupling than to have my lover’s cum pooling inside the most intimate part of my body? I think, "MMM, it was me, my pussy that caused that! To be doing this incredibly intimate act with a man who is not my husband? WOW!" When I got married I assumed the only man who would ever know me sexually from that point on would be my husband. But fast forward and here I am, still married, so naked and wide open, panting, moaning, begging for it while a man who is definitely not my husband is slamming his unprotected cock inside of me, groaning and moaning and grinding until he reaches the point of no return and, as he feels the wet squeeze as my pussy enveloping him, he shoots all of his cum deep inside of my aching cunt. God! That feels so dirty, but I love it! Then I head home in the taxi feeling satisfied and sexy. I have that sense of heightened feeling I always have after good sex and the fact that it was illicit extra-marital sex just brings that feeling to a whole new level. My nipples are still a little aroused, I know my skin is flushed, and when I squeeze my legs together I feel so damned wet. And I know I just responded to another man with way more energy and enthusiasm than I do when I’m being fucked by my husband of more than 25 years. I know I came harder and longer and more intensely than when hubby fucks me. And I know this wetness between my legs isn’t there just because my recent extra-marital fucking got me so aroused, but it’s also because my lover unloaded a great deal of cum inside my naughty pussy. I’m such a hot fuck; he couldn’t help but blow his load inside of this old married pussy. And I’m now heading home to my waiting husband with the cum of another man inside of me, proud to have this obvious indication of my adultery inside my messy pussy. Hubby can't wait for me to return. He will lay me back on the bed and finally get to fuck me, shoving his bursting at the seams cock up me and fuck me like a whirlwind. His first come is always in less than a minute, no matter how hard he tries to prolong it. When he's finished, I make him get out so I can see how much of my lover's cum mixed with hubby's runs out onto the sheets below my cunt. He and I are both turned on by seeing this evidence of the lust I create in both of them by being a fuckable woman. Then he slams back into me and fucks me again, and maybe a third time, then lays on me panting from his exertion, and I love knowing I have the power to affect him so strongly that way. It's the same when I bring another man home into our marital bed and hubby fucks me afterward. As for me, well, even though I might feel some twinges of guilt about all this, that guilt is definitely in the category of guilty pleasure with a very strong emphasis on the pleasure part of it. I’m getting lots of strange cock pretty much whenever I want. I sometimes feel twinges of guilt, but I don't feel bad because he has agreed to this arrangement. And sometimes, between lovers, I'll want to be fucked, and hubby is the beneficiary of really hot sex from me because when he's fucking me I'm imagining it to be one of my lovers In summation, our 'lifestyle' has made me a sexually confident desirable woman who feels on top of the world. This is particularly true when I’m moaning, groaning and bearing down on the hard cock of a man other than my husband as he thrusts deep inside my married pussy, making me come and reminding me that, married or not, I can have it all at my age. It sure keeps me happily married.