I'm a woman in her 30s and I suppose I'm a bit wierd,I've got this thing about watching men jacking off.When did it start?,.When I was a young lass I was going through a little park near where I lived then.There was this chap,probably in his 50s half hidden behind some bushes,at first I thought he was having a pee,I tried to ignore him,but then I saw he had a hardon,it was the first time I'd seen anything like that,he was rubbing it up and down with his hand,he just had it out the flies of his trousers. I know I should'nt have done but after I'd gone about 50 yards I had an urge to see what he was doing,I can't remember if it was a sexual thing or just curiosity.I turned around and went back,he must have seen me coming because when I got back to where he was he had his trousers down around his ankles and he had pushed his shirt up,I did a silly thing,I went and sat on a seat and pretended I had'nt noticed him there,then I could feel a tingling between my legs as his hand moved faster and faster up and down his cock. That was the first time I saw a man jack off,I think it was the way his spunk shot into the air that got me,needless to say he pulled his trousers up fast and disappeared,after that I kept seeing it in my mind,I think I was a bit envious.In my first relationship with a young chap and the first time we had sex I felt disappointed not seeing him jack off,it was one of them quick things,I never even got to touch his cock,he just put it inside me and jacked off instantly,did nothing for me. I'd moved into a flat on my own and in an ordinary house,across the back from me there was a older chap again who started to appear at his window late at night,at first just wearing his undies,he would lean out the window for a smoke.I kept my light off but would watch him,sometimes it was obvious that he had his hand inside his undies playing with himself.He started to move further back into his room,where I think he could only be seen from my window. He would stand under the light and with his undies still on would what I came to know as wank himself,he obviously knew I was spying on him.Inevitably the undies came off and he would stand there openly wanking himself,turning around to give me a full sight of him.I always knew when he was going to jack off,he would get a handkerchief and hold it in his other hand and catch his spunk in it. I started to wank myself in the darkness,I don't know if he could see me but I started to strip naked and try to bring myself off at the same time as he did.I had a few sexual relationships with men but intercourse did'nt work for me,as far as I was concerned if they had stood there and let me watch them jack themselves off,I think I could have come off on that,by then I knew what a cock felt like and knew they came in different sizes,I knew that some jacked off quicker than others but that did'nt do it for me. I was in a ladies toilet having a pee,something caught my attention and suddenly I realised there was a small hole into the toilets next door,it was the gents toilet.Curiosity again,I looked through and saw a cock being wanked,it immediately started the tingling between my legs,I could see enough to know he was naked.His eye came to the hole,I pulled away but he could see I'd been watching him,he moved a bit further back so I could get a better view. I pushed my knickers off and started to finger myself,he could probably hear me breathing,his eye came back to the hole,I stood up and removed my top and bra,I could hear him breathing,the thought of how stupid I was being never crossed my mind,to put it mildly I was in an orgasmic state,I sttod in the middle of the cubicle pulling on my nipples and wanking myself,hoping he was watching me.I heard him make the sounds I'd heard before when they're jacking off,I looked through the hole. He had his legs wide apart,I could see his balls bouncing up and down below the cock being wanked furiously,then that moment when the cock seems to reach its absolute height and start to jack,and my own body implodes and explodes as I watch his spunk erupt from his balls,after that event I thought it would'nt happen again. But of course it did,not in a ladies toilet but in a gents.I took to dressing to look like a chap and started to visit gents toilets late at night,ones that had a reputation for men wanking each other off.I'd get myself in a cubicle and wait,I was scared to hell at first but soon got the hang of it,I would just watch through the holes as chaps wanked each other off,there was a bit of sucking went on but again unless they took the cock from their mouth at the last second and finished it off by wanking it I did'nt come off on it. I had entered a wierd world,where I amagine few women had ever ventured.Over the next several years I spent hours in gents toilets seeing and doing things you would'nt believe,I still need that sight of a man jacking off.