For a while I thought I could deny being gay,it was about five years ago that I first watched a couple of guys having gay sex,it was in a downstairs public toilet in a northwest seaside resort.They made no attempt to hide what they were doing,I was still a young lad and as I stood at the stalls in the toilet it was as if I was'nt there,they were openly wanking each other.I was staying at the stall longer than I needed to and even when another chap came in they did'nt stop,he took his cock out and as he watched what they were doing he started to wank himself,and still I stood there. Then the guy who had just come in volunteered to watch the stairs while they went further and he continued wanking himself as he watched them,they obviously thought that i'd come in to wank which I honestly had'nt,but by now I did have a hardon and like the guy doing lookout I'm watching what they are doing. One of them undoes the other guys trousers and lowers them down to his ankles,then he pulls down his undies,also to his ankles.The guy who's trousers and undies were down then leant forward and supported himself with his hands on the top of the stalls,I could'nt believe what they were doing,the guy on lookout kept telling them it was all clear,it did'nt seem to matter that I was there watching it all. The second guy now got a condom out of his pocket tore the packet open took it out and put it on his hard cock,I can remember nearly spunking while I watched him doing that.He squeesed lubricant onto his finger and started to rub it between his mates cheeks then I could tell he had pushed one of his fingers up into him,the other guy was moaning and jerking his hips. After a bit of time pushing his finger in and out and applying more lubricant he pushed his own trousers and undies down,he held his condom covered cock and guided it in between the guys cheeks,the moaning got louder,the guy on lookout was wanking himself fasdter and faster telling them everything was OK,I realise I want to spunk so I slow my own hand action. I could see that his cock was pushing up into his arsehole,he grabbed his hips and pushed as deep as he could,I'd never really thought about one man fucking another,now I was watching it being done,he started to hard fuck him,almost bringing his cock fully out before ramming it back in again.The guy being fucked took one hand off the stalls and started to wank himself,shooting his load onto the stalls in seconds.no doubt as his arsehole tightened as it does when your spunking that started his mate spunking into him. They had litterally got their trousers back up when the lookout rushed to the stalls and footsteps were on the stairs,it was as if he knew what the score was,he promptly took his cock out and started wanking,why I let him move closer to me and take my cock in his hand I don't know,but that was all it needed I immediately started to spunk. I put the whole episode to the back of my mind,ended up getting maried a year or so later,I was still just a young lad,enjoyed sex with my wife but I began to realise that there was something missing,I wanted so badly to fuck her arse but she thought I was perverted,I wanted her to wank me or suck me,but she would'nt do that either,I found that putting my cock into her I was finding it harder and harder to spunk off,so I began to pretend I had spunked and then later would wank myself off,we ended up divorced last year,I'm still just 22 yrs old and I knew I needed something different. Earlier this week I took a trip to the dunes near Formby in Lancashire,the thought of what I'd seen in that public toilet coming to the forefront of my mind,I wanted to fuck or be fucked by another man.