Ive had sex with a couple of other males in the past year.Im 19 yr old now ,had sex with one of the other students after wed had a few drinks,he was ok with being gay ive never told anyone.THE other ones Ive had sex with were older men Id met in a park where Id heard heard that men went there at night to have sex.I didnt even know what they looked like and even sometimes I didnt join in I just watched them doing it and just wanked off.im always scared I might meet somebody who knows me.only once ever in the park have I let another man strip me off naked,then he got me to suck off his cock.I didnt really want to do it but when I started sucking it I really liked doing it,i thought it would taste terrible but I even lkied the taste,of his cock and his spunk.For the first time 0n saturday night I went back to a mans house with him.I wasnt sure I wanted to but i did,i didnt know what to do when we got there but he got us both a drink and then he took all his clothes off,it was the first time Id seen a man with a hardon in the light.He told me to get srtipped off and even though i didnt know if I wanted to he started to undo my pants and then he put his hand in my undies and started to wank me and he was wanking himself with his other hand.When we were both stripped off we started to wank each other an then he got down in front of me and started to suck my cock and he knew when i was going to spunk and he stooped sucking it and made me get on my knees ans suck his,when I was sucking him for a while he haeld my head and started to push his cock in and out as fast as he could,I nearly choked when he started to spunk he pushed his cock rihgt back into my throat,when hed finished spunking he started to suck mine again he held a grip on my arse and kept sucking me till i spunked.He asked me to go to bed with him and stay over we wanked each other again in bed but we didnt spunk he wanted to do it in the morning.At about 4 in the marning i woke and he had his arms around me in a tight grip,even though Id been dead asleep i had a hardon and hes wanking it and I could feel hes trying to put his cock into my arsehole,i could feel that I was wet and hed been putting spit on me.I said he was hurting me but he said that once his cock went in I would relly like it.the thing was that because he was wanking me i liked his cock pushing into my arsehole and even though it was hurting like fuck i wanted him to put it in.Once it went inside it more or less stopped hurting and as he started to fuck my arse it got better and better.he was grunting and growling as he fucked me,i tried not to spunk off but i couldnt stop it.once i started to come off in his hand I could tell he was spunking into me,the hurting was worth it.