Not the most exciting story but:

I've always had curiosity over sucking cock. Over the years I've had a few experiences with GH's, saunas etc. These have always been immediately followed by feelings of guilty, 'what the fuck have I done?' etc. These subside and my craving is satisfied and actively subdued for a couple of years until the cycle starts again. I don't class myself as bi but I suppose that If I look at it, my interest in cuckold porn developed which led to more sissy videos. I would always focus on the cock not the lucky woman being fucked by it.

Anyway, a couple of weeks ago I was in a fortunate position to have a few hours spare and I happened to be collecting some items from an area directly opposite a hotel.

On the off chance I opened a well known app and searched nearby, mainly just to pass time. I was instantly messaged by someone a matter of metres away in the hotel. So it began, the excitement, the apprehension, the "no I'm not going to do it" followed by the inevitable, arranging a meet.

A couple if times I closed the app down to try and ignore it but surely found myself walking into the reception area thinking to myself "I can still pull out." Found myself in a trance heading to the room, initially took a wrong turn and walked into the cleaner. I apologised and turned around and I'm certain she gave me a knowing smile.

The next thing I'm there knocking on the door, lock turns and in I go. Thinking to myself "fuck no going back now."

I was met with well dressed, recently showered guy who had his hands up my top rubbing my chest. I instantly dropped to my knees , undid his leather belt and dropped his trousers and boxers. I was met with a lovely cock. Not overly long but thick with a nice, shiny, bulbous head. The head was so large that his foreskin was wedged behind giving a circumcised look.

I instantly took him in my mouth, the taste, the feeling, the thoughts racing through my mind. I sucked and licked all around the head feeling him grow in my mouth. He laid down and I licked his shaft, sucked his balls and paid a lot of attention to that bulbous head.

He then sat up, asked me to stand in front of him and show him my ass. I wasn't that comfortable but went along with it dropping my jeans and boxers. I heard a moan as his eyes oggled me and felt his hand rub my ass. I felt exposed and vulnerable stood there like that and whilst one part of me felt uncomfortable, the other part felt excited and aroused at not being the one in control.

I turned around and his cock was rock hard so took him in my mouth and sucked some more until finally kneeling Infront of him as he wanted himself to completion.

Despite being so aroused, my cock didn't grow throughout the entire encounter, this was the sissy in me coming out focussing on him and just being a object for him to get release. This made me feel even dirtier and excited as I left.

This time something was different, I didn't have the usual feelings of guilt etc. I had the feelings of being used and wanting to be used again!! Since then I have been thinking about it a lot and cannot wait for a similar experience. Maybe all that cuckold and sissy porn is having an effect? ;)