Please don’t judge . I am married to Tom we have kids a good marriage but I was online last week and I don’t know why I was feeling a bit frisky, my hubby was at work , I looked for porn just for stress relief “as you do “ I have watch porn Tom normally 3 somes , 4 , big dicked hunks and perfect women , it was full on I wanted my moment to last a bit , I did a search and lesbian porn came up , bondage , strap on , spanking , oral I was engrossed , the girls were like models all tanned up with , perfect fake tits but they were not shy , the strap on paid a visit to all their willing holes , I was getting really wet , I got my favorite dildo out of our secret box , a few sucks and I pleasures myself inch by inch , it was amazing , wanking and rubbing my clit , then I thought I would see if I could get it up my arse , I have had anal with Tom but never with a toy . I bit of spit lube and some pussy juice I positioned myself then a little push and the head was in , then slowly I moved it in and out of my arse , it felt strange but dirty, I continued fucking my self , with my free hand I fingered my pussy and I was arse fucking myself , I peaked and came hard . A bit more rubbing of my clit and I came again. I keep going back to girl on porn , is this normal ? The thought of a girl licking my pussy and fucking me with a strap on is filling my head with crazy sexy thoughts. Do I say nothing , maybe mention it to Tom , i want to bring a woman into our bed , for fun and frolics, the truth is it’s for me not Tom fucking me I want the girl on action. I know a girl who would be up for it , what to a do ......... please be kind with your reply’s