Just got home still trembling and a bit cross with myself. Started a couple of weeks ago same place as tonight, stopped to have wee in a forestry pull in, i walked around the passenger side of my car had a wee and seeing as it was really dark had a cheeky thought why not have a quick wank as obviously nobody was around, i was hard in no time and was leaning against the side of my car slowly pulling myself off, i got a little braver and let my shorts fall to the floor and the cool chill in the air added to my excitement. After probably only a couple of minutes i was in full flow, i stepped out of my shorts and was now so turned on i closed my eyes and became really aware of how loud my moaning was becoming, so loud and in the moment that i hadn't even noticed that someone was standing only a couple of feet away watching me wank. I wasn't in any sort of position to put myself away so sort of stood still holding myself, next thing i knew they came closer and as they ran their fingers over my wet tip i realized it was actually a guy, now ive never had that before but to my surprise i was still really hard so i let him carry on. What happened next was even odder, as i started to moan that i was coming he gripped the base of my cock, moved in closer kissed me, proper open mouth kiss and as his tongue darted into my mouth he released his grip and proceeded to wanked me off, i was a mess as i came, groaning into his mouth, my legs shaking and having to stop him wanking me anymore as i became so sensitive, all the time still kissing me. I pulled back first and the only think i could think to say in that moment was wow, he stepped back a little looked down at my still hard cock and just said another time and walked off. i stood there in the dark half naked stunned by what had just happened but loved every second of it. The reason im cross is i went back tonight with every intention of returning the favour or more if i got chance but when i got there, there were a few cars and even though i had my cock out and ready to go i bottled it and drove off. Any advice on calming the nerves, i want to go back and feel that feeling again