I met N at the gym but didn’t pay too much attention at first as I was not on the lookout, being married. I’ve never really felt anything special about most of the men I have met so marriage was something that I did with someone who became a friend. But there was a chemistry missing that has left me with a void. It was only when I was on an injury break and stopped going to the gym did I realise that I missed N’s cheeky humour. When I returned to the gym he had my interest and I really wanted to get to know him. Well, I certainly got to know him better when I found myself meeting him after work for an intimate evening. I expected to fulfil a fantasy and walk away but when he started kissing and fucking me, I couldn’t believe how good it felt to shag him. He takes me to another level that no one else has done before. I’m talking multiple orgasms and flip flops in my stomach just from his kiss. I’m embarrassed to admit how good he makes me feel and I want more. And it’s surprised me how attracted I am to him and the way he is. He pretends to be a bad boy but he is really something special. He’s got my head spinning and my cunt dripping with longing for him all at the same time! So we’ve continued to have sex and I’ve found myself more and more attracted to him as I got to see fragments of the man he is. I’ve never lost myself to someone like that and it scares me to feel that way. Part of me pushes him away by acting childish. I’m like a kid in the school playground torturing myself when I really want to tease and play with him in oh so many naughty ways! Despite how I act, deep down I want him to take me completely. The sex is amazing and I can’t get enough. I’ve often climaxed just thinking about his pounding me with that lovely cock of his. But when he fucks me for real, it’s the most amazing feeling in the world. Oh the things he can make me feel with his cock, mouth and fingers all over and inside me! You should see how hard and erect my nipples become just thinking about him. I can’t wait for him to play with my tits and suck on them hard. In the meantime, my marriage is falling apart. I so desperately want to escape but don’t know where to start. Wanting out of my marriage and wanting to go to N and have him comfort me, fuck me, play with me, or just be with me all at once. I don’t think N feels the same way but then I’ve never let him see the whole me and he’s got his own emotional baggage though he’d be the last person to admit it! It hurts me to see that in him. But he makes me smile inside and I long to get closer. I know N is seeing other women but their having sex doesn’t really bother me as it is not love. What does hurt me is seeing him looking for someone or something else when I want my freedom to give myself to him instead. I’d like to know if N can fill the void I didn’t know existed until I met him. Or at least give it a try. If I’m lucky I will get to have shed loads of fun and horny sex interspersed with intimate quiet moments with N instead of the bitter sweet moments of guilty pleasure! Life’s too short not to take the chance if he will give to me but I’m not sure he is real about me or himself. The question is would he be willing to try?