Hey, its Kathy again. I’m the girl whose boyfriend finally got me into BBC then shortly after, we broke up. I was so depressed and down all the time. We used to play from Friday afternoon to Monday morning, pretty much. Now I’m sitting here alone losing my mind. It was Friday night about midnight and I couldn’t sleep when the phone rang. Hoping it was my ex, I answered it quickly. It wasn’t my ex. I didn’t even recognize the voice. He said it was Darell. Finally it came to me. Darell was one of the BBC’s we played with over the phone, really late at night. We have never met but were discussing it before the break up. But that doesn’t matter. I cant play like that without my ex. He’s the one who orchestrated/took charge of everything. Surely I cant on my own! I’m not even in the mood and I surely don’t feel sexual. I began to tell him all this like a crazed woman and he told me to just relax and it will come back to me in time. I told him I doubt it, but he said he has gotten to know the “hot and slutty Kathy” a bit over the past weeks and knows what I want and need.I thought to myself how I wish I was that person again. He says, “Tell you what baby. Who needs Dave. We can play along just fine without him. I will call you tomorrow night at midnight, and I want you to be dressed up for me and I want you to be partied up for me, and I want you to be watching those filthy movies you have, plus I want you to have all your toys out for me…ok baby? And if you’re not into it, fine. I can wait for someone as special as you. What do you say baby? I’ll help you forget about Dave for sure baby..” I liked that last part for sure, but told him I wasn’t sure. We hung up and I started thinking a lot about Darell and what he said. How sweet he sounded and calling me special and not pushing me to do anything, that he would wait for me. I started remembering some kinky experiences we shared over the phone and I remembered I had some pictures of him and his BBC in some saved Emails. I found myself quickly looking them up. My hand moved to my panties and I started rubbing myself! I cant believe it! I haven’t felt horny or so sexy in a while! I was so happy! Darell got me to feel like I thought I wouldn’t anymore. Got me to feel like I used to with my ex(like a slut!!). But fuck my ex! Like Darell said, who needs him. Just to prove it to myself, I got out my favorite BBC toy and played with it while looking at the pictures I found of Darell(and his beautiful thisk black cock!!) and started fantasizing about him. I came massively a couple of times before finally going to bed. The next day, I just lounged around all day with one hand down my shorts and the other surfing interracial sites on the internet. I was back! Only now I didn’t have my ex doing everything for us, I was doing it for myself! I couldn’t wait till Darell’s phone call tonight. I felt so incredibly naughty doing this on my own. Dave would have been so proud. I know its only over the phone, but in my mind my black lover was coming over in person. To take care of me and help me forget about my ex. He was going to come into my house and use this little white girl like she should be used….by his big black cock! Boy was that the longest day ever! I kept counting the minutes till midnight. At 11, I started getting ready. The sexy feeling was back! I really believed it was gone forever. It was obvious I couldn’t find out how…I really owe Darell more than he could ever know! Its like he saved me! Right at midnight, I was laying in bed in my lace purple and black teddy. My toys were at my side and filthy interracial porn on the T.V. The phone rang and my heart almost exploded thru my chest! I answered it before the first ring even ended! Hearing his soft, deep sexy voice almost had me melting on the spot. I closed my eyes and felt a rush sweep over me. “Hi baby” he says. “Are we on for some fun tonight or are you not feeling it…” I could hear sorrow in his voice over the chance of me telling him what I told him the other night. So you can imagine how happy he sounded that I told him, “Not only am I ready and have done everything you requested, but I wanted to sincerely thank you for bringing me back to life! It’s been months since I’ve felt like this and I really missed it. So thank you.” He says, “Oh you mean feeling like a hot slut?” We both laugh aloud cause he was so right. Then he tells me how happy he was that I decided for this and says he has the biggest surprise of them all for me. For me? I was anxious to hear my surprise!! I kept asking and asking when all of a sudden the phone line went dead. Oh my god!! You cant do that to a girl! Not now! I was looking at my phone disappointed and a bit angry when I heard knocking on the front door. What the…..? I ran upstairs and looked through the peephole, Oh my god! I think its Darell!! We’ve never actually met, only online and in pictures. For a second, I don’t know what to do? I was dizzy with confusion. Then the thought of this black guy at this hour, on my porch for all the neighbors to see convinced me quickly to open the door and rush him on in. This situation is so nuts and happening so fast that I didn’t even throw on a robe or cover up! He was already all smiles as he enters my place but when he stands back and sees me in my outfit, he says “Oh my god Kathy. Those photos and that webcam do you no justice sweetie. You are the single most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life!” I blush and look shyly to the ground as he says, “Come here girl.” He stays there standing while he opens his arms apart and waits to see what I do next. I look up at him and tell him that I’ve been waiting for him since we hung up yesterday and I go into his strong arms. He hugs me tight and kisses me on the side of my head while telling me more flattering things. I’m melting into his embrace. We finally pull apart and I ask how did he…….he cuts me off and tells me that Dave gave him the address and directions a short while before we broke up because he wanted him to do a rape/fantasy roll play with me. I stopped and was in shock because Dave had been asking me for something like that but I wasn’t ready and totally said no to him! What an ass! Darell read that on my face and says, “But that’s enough about him. Forever. Really.” He snaps me out of it and tells me he has one more surprise, but wasn’t sure he should show me or not. We sit on the couch as I keep insisting to see it! I love gifts and surprises. He tells me that he remembers me saying how much I like it and love it while playing, and he hands me a pipe full of the smoke I haven’t touched in months, and have missed so dearly! It helps me lower all inhibitions, and more! This guy really is in tune with me! I’m overcome with so much emotion that I grab the pipe from his hands and give him a huge hug! I whisper to him that he is my hero and I thank him for making me so happy and giving me a part of my life back. He answers back that I haven’t seen anything yet! I swear, he is doing and saying all the right things to me right now. I give him my sexy smile/look as he hands me a lighter. Its been so long that I kind of hog it for a few, finally passing it to him and he says maybe later, and that he has never tried it before. Which makes him even sweeter in my eyes because he had to go out of his way, and find it, just for me. I lost it right there and went in for a kiss. We started getting really into it and while we were kissing, I could tell he was fishing his cock out of his pants. Then, mid-kiss, he pulled my face away from his by a fistful of my hair, and pulled my face downward, “Suck my black cock you beautiful bitch!” Wow, what happened to the sweetheart? I didn’t mind. I grabbed it in both hands and started at it for a second while slowly jerking up and down on it. I thought to myself how, only last night, I came to images of this same black cock! I smiled to myself and took it in my mouth. He still had me by the hair as he spoke down to me and kept shoving my face deeper and deeper onto his huge black cock. I have actually mastered deep throating my BBC toy which is 10inches and pretty thick, so though I was struggling a tiny bit on this cock, I still was doing ok. I could tell I was doing well because of the reaction I was getting from Darell. “Oh fuck, you fuckin slut! How does somebody so fine as you suck a black cock as good as you do? No fuckin way, impossible. Oh yes….damn….” He stood up, yet kept my mouth on his cock by my hair. I was on my knees sucking hard and looking up at him. “God damn look at those beautiful blue eyes looking up at me. Fuck! Stick out your tongue slut. I need to slap that beautiful face up. Its too pretty baby. Those eyes gonna make me cum too quick!” I stuck my tongue out and got the black cock lashing of a lifetime. It was hot and I loved it but I gathered I was the image of all the “fine” white girls who have rejected him from the past. He ordered me to suck his huge hairy balls and I did it with pleasure. “Damn you like it all, don’t you bitch. You’re loving this as much as I am aren’t you.” I didn’t even take my mouth off his balls to answer. I just mumbled MMmmmHHmmm! Right then he shoved his black cock back in my mouth and let out a howl that the whole neighborhood must have heard as he emptied those delicious black balls of their sweet cum. I tried drinking down as much as I could but I think he was still trying to push my buttons by pulling out and jerking a gallon of hot cum in my hair and on my face. “There it is you white bitch! Daddy’s gonna know you fucked a black man now. Your church is gonna know now slut.” When he finally stopped cumming, our eyes were locked on one another and he was the first to start laughing and said he was sorry and hoped I wasn’t offended. I laughed and told him that I get it and I actually liked it. It seems when he’s not having sex with a white girl, he’s kind and sweet. But when he gets a chance (and it isn’t too often) to have sex with a white girl, he gets angry and rough and tries to fuck them to death. The prettier they are, the worse he gets. I told him that it wasn’t so bad, He said he fought off the urge to be truly mean to me cause he really likes me. I whispered to him, “Awwwe, You are so sweet.. aren’t you, baby. And I’m glad you resisted just for me cause I like you too…..tell you what.(I pull myself up and give him a sexy wet kiss) You don’t have to hold back with me” as I smile to him and grab hold of his now hardening black cock. I hear him say that I’m perfect as I hold on to his BBC and lead him downstairs to my room... By his cock! Darell became my first black boyfriend, though I had to keep him a secret from my family and some friends. Something that, in the long run, broke us up. I didn’t mind being showed off to all his family and friends, guess he wanted that too? He admitted to me that he had a confession to make. Apparently, a while back when he and Dave were chatting online, it was Darrell who was trying to get Dave to set up a rape/fantasy roll play not the other way around. I asked him if he still wanted to rape me now that we were together. He said it was a little different now, but he would like to watch me get raped and he has a black friend who would be glad to do it. I told him to let me think about it and it was never brought up again…