Once again, thanks to Dave for starting this thread. I'm going through a period of grieving at the moment, and there's probably a lot of stuff that I need to get out.
A very dear friend of mine died at the start of march this year at the age of 29. Apart from the fact it's the first death of someone close that I've had to deal with as an adult, it was just so sudden and unexpected. I spoke to her on the phone one evening, the next evening she was gone. There's also the huge problem of not having anyone to blame, as it was a completely natural death (she had a siezure in the bath which caused her to drown). I'm sure the grieving process would be 100 times easier if there was someone or something that I could direct my anger towards. I can't even direct any anger towards "god", as I'm as athiest as you can get.
I miss her terribly, I'd known her since she was 16, and she was one of the nicest, most genuine people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. So many things make me think of her, a snippet of music heard on the radio, watching a film I think she'd like, seeing something on TV that she liked, then my brain sort of pauses for a second until I'm hit with the reality that I'll never see her again.
I'm sure time will make me feel better, but at the moment, six months on from the event, I still feel as bad as I did when I heard the news. Typing this out has hopefully helpled a bit (I'm on about the 15th re-write now though), I've had a bit of a cry about it, which I've not done for about three months now, so hopefully I'll feel a bit better in the morning.
Sexlightened
