I am Annie my story is a dilemma, i was maid of honour when my best friend Beth got married in March last year , we have been friends since we met at university 10 years ago. We were more like sisters than friends , she shared our life’s ups and downs , tears and joys. Boyfriends , all details of our sex lives , no stone was left , we went on girlie holidays and had holiday romances. Summer 2018 we arranged to go to Kos for a girlie holiday , there was 4 of us booked , only a week but we were looking forward to it , then Julie one of the 4 pulled out because of a issue with work and then a week before our holiday Shauna pulled out leaving only 2 of us. To speed the story up , we flew to Kos , lovely hotel and location , it was perfect one night we went out and got sloshed , more a over merry giggly pissed than a stupid pissed of that makes any sense. Anyway back to the apartment we had more drinks , music on , dancing and just having a laugh, we were snuggled up on the couch then Beth made a pass at me and we kissed , slow and tender to start then full on heavy kissing , boob grabbing , it was lust and i responded , we stripped off and got into bed together our nakedness was pure , my heart was beating so hard, my nipples were erect and my pussy so wet , i wanted her touch and she never disappointed , i tasted her sex and she finger frigged my pussy to one of my many orgasms that night. We explored every inch of our body’s i was so into her, we fell asleep , in the morning we hugged and discussed what had happened , we both enjoyed the moment , and we acknowledge our chemical attraction, we kissed and made love again - 69 a position that is full on lust. The rest of our holiday was a shag lesbian fest , i enjoyed our company together but i knew this was only a fling as Beth was in a relationship with Declan - her soon to be fiancé and Husband. On returning back to the UK , we carried on as if nothing had happened, i was ok with that but Beth wanted us to have a catch up over a coffee , she was touchie feely, and grabbed a kiss when it was safe. One night i got a message saying that she had a falling out argument with Dec and could she stay at mine. She was all over me like a rash , my phone went later on that evening it was Dec asking could he talk to Beth i said no , unknown to him as he was talking to me Beth was licking out my pussy, a bit soreal but very horny. I knew my boundaries but beth always instigated our next get together. When Beth told be Dec had proposed i was so pleased for them , the wedding was booked and she asked me to be her maid of honour, we all went to Marbella for her hen holiday, great fun , we had the odd snog and cheeky grope but there were too many girls on the holiday. On her wedding day i stayed with her in her hotel , her mum and sisters were coming around the next morning to get her ready for her big day. She put on her wedding dress to show me and i pleasured her with my tongue and fingers , she said she would be thinking of me on her wedding night. The wedding day was amazing , such a great day and night , later on that night she handed me her white lacy panties , she had removed them. I sniffed her smell it was intoxicating. The next day they set off on their honeymoon , i remember getting a video from her , i could hear her voice but i could see her fingers finger fucking herself . It was such a turn on . Here is my dilemma, beth now a married woman told me she loves me and her marrage was a mistake , she loves me and wants to be with me. I begged her to stay with Dec, she is willing to tell everyone weve been having been having a fling , for me it was just the exciting sex but beth has fallen for me. It was always only the sex I dont understand why she wants out. Maybe she was gay all along. This lockdown has brought things into perspective, i dont want to be the marrage breaker - i even suggested she tell Dec about me and let the fun times begin. Any suggestions would be appreciated, i want her to stay married , the truth is i dont love her , this will break her heart if i tell her. What the fuck do i do ?